One Year Plan

Well, this here situation I'm in is not working. Why do I feel lonely at a church I've been to my whole life? Why do I feel like all but a select few of my friends view me as expendable? If I'm gonna be lonely what's the point of being lonely somewhere I've been forever? SOOO I'm seriously considering moving to Portland, Vancouver, or Seattle area. Wherever I can find a job. It's the change of pace, and the new situation I'm looking for. I a free bird. My job here is ok, I have no boyfriend, and I really don't do anyting aside from leadership at Sunday night church that I'm proud of or feel...a part of. If something's not working, why linger? Move on, fly to a new nest, one that isn't broken, damaged and painful. Lately I've been pretty introverted so the first few months not knowing many people won't be so bad at all. I'll read, and write and bask in the green rainy beauty of the west (california sucks, and cannot be included in the previous description). I'll find a church first off, and really work to get involved. I'll be the best witness I can be, and people who will only know that Stacie, not the one who goes in and out of being a good example. I'll explore the beauty God made and love it. I get butterflies thinking about living there, no where else in the U.S does it for me. *No offense AL*. I want a fresh start, what better time than the present before I have a solid reason not to? Maybe it's just the thing to get the rest of my life rollin'. I feel closest to God when I'm deep in natural beauty- the mountains, beach, whatever. I believe there to be no more beautiful place to live out my faith. If that doesn't work, I'll come back. Just like I did from AL and start over here *again*. Maybe I'm meant to constantly move. Maybe one day I can settle, but who's to say it's here? Just a thought.