College, Friends, and Marriage

I know it's been a while since I've written. It's not that I don't have time, I just have so many thoughts milling, and no idea how to put them into reasonable verbage. What I guess I'll do is just go through my thoughts by category, because that's how I work. Speaking of work: I love my job, I like the people I work with, most of the people I work for, and I don't often leave work stressed out. However, it's not a career. It's an in-between. Without college though, isn't that what I'll be doing? Jumping from in-between to in-between? If I have to dip in to my savings to eat, because I did something nice for myself then how will I pay for college? Loans are... loans.. Who's to say I will even get a job that I can pay off those loans after I graduate. My last job and this job, I work with a bunch of people with degrees, and they make what I do, only less because they are paying off loans that were practically pointless for them to get as it was. So I'm not going to college. Working an in-between job isn't unsatisfying, because I never want to settle down completely.. Maybe that's just right now. Friends and marriage. Seems to be the topic of my life. "Hey Stacie! Guess what?? " "You're getting married?" "How'd you know?" "Because everyone is getting freakin married!!" We are too young people!!! I mean it would be nice to have someone special to share life with, but we are young! How do you even know you're the grown up version of you, and what if when you become that person you're not such a good match?? I'm growing apart from most of my long time friends simply because we are different people than we were back in the day. It's not bad, we are just changing, seperately. So.. I guess it's time to branch out. Meet some people, change habits, and fly on my own. Free bird will find her way, but I wish it didn't involve lonliness. OH well, have fun with your kids when you're 25 and I'm still having the time of my life. With love, Stacie.